independence

over a small course of time, so many things can change. clothes, weather, friends.

sometimes in life, in the shortest amount of time possible, people change. they were once a person whom you could count on anything for and soon they become a stranger watching from a distance.

i'm not saying it's a bad thing. sometimes people grow up and leave their friends behind. sometimes people don't want to grow up and get left behind. sometimes opinions change, sometimes people change.

when you grow up in this world, you should have a person you can count on. and that person should be yourself. yes, you do have friends. but as my mother would say, friends come and go, the only person you can trust is yourself.

and it's true. i'm in university. yes i will have friendships that last a lifetime. yes i will have friendships that don't. i don't know which one is which and until i explore and figure that out, i continue making friends.

in the end however, there shall be more people that will come and go in my life. and i shall have to go back to depending on myself. when you were born, you took your first steps, your friends weren't there. when you spoke your first word, your friends weren't there.

so don't worry too much about friendships that don't last. if they are meant to, they will. even in the hardest of times.

life starts of independently. and ends in the same way.

-s-

a little bit of hope

there comes a point in your life where everything seems to be perfect. your career, your family and your friends. this however doesn't seem to go on forever. after living in bliss for a couple of weeks, it all comes crashing down.

something goes so wrong that it can't be fixed.

but when things like this happen, there is always one person who puts a little bit of hope in you. there is always one person who makes you see the light at the end of the tunnel. there is always one person who will help you climb up when you've reached rock bottom.

sometimes, we take advantage of that person. sometimes we don't appreciate them. sometimes we dismiss them. we never truly realize how much we need that person in our lives until it comes crashing down.

even though things are rough and times are hard, it's at those points that true friendship develops. it's at those points that friends who believe in you stand up for you and tell you the way things are.

they speak the truth and know that you will take the best out of it. they know that you need time to grow and they will be with you when it happens. they help you become a better person. they help you do that no matter how close or far away they are.

it's people like that you need in your life

-s-

positive thinking

at the beginning of the year, i wanted to change. i decided that i was long overdue for one. so i decided to change the physical aspects of myself. i cut my hair and i pierced my bellybutton.

i thought doing things like this would help me change. that they would somehow change my personality as well. but they don't. changing your physique doesn't do anything to change who you are.

after a lot of contemplating and a lot of ups and downs, i decided that i should look at the better things in life. that it's only my mentality that can change the way i look at things. that it has to be me that says that the sun is going to shine everyday.

i used to be a roller coaster. i used to have massive mood swings. but now, i don't. i don't have those mood swings because i have nothing to be upset about. everyday i wake up and think that today is a new day and i start it with a smile on my face. i think to myself that nothing can go wrong. and if something does, then i deal with it then.

i never realised how much positive thinking could lift a person's mood and their outlook on life, but it does. it's caused me to change the way i think and the way i look at things.

i'm pretty sure it can change yours too.

-s-

spring opportunities

so spring is finally upon us.

the grass is green. the birds are singing and the sun is finally out. the weather is amazing, and life in general seems pretty good.

even if it isn't, the weather makes you feel like you're capable of doing anything. but isn't that what you should be feeling everyday regardless?

everyday, there are people who make their own opportunities and go for it. there are people who rise up to the occasion when it comes. there are people who just watch.

but why do we have to be those people? why do we have to be the ones to sit on the sidelines and watch other people climb the ladder, while we hold it steady for them? we can create our own opportunities. we can rise up to the occasion. no one has to tell you that you have the capabilities to do great things. you know you do. there's something inside that's telling you to go for it.

make your opportunities. rise up to the occasion. go for it.

-s-