relationships

every singe year, we should assess how much things have changed. if i look back as to what has changed the most, i would have to say my relationships.

i've made new friends, lost some and become a lot closer to my mom.

making new friends is easy. saying a hi or a hello and lending a hand to help them out. the problem is that when making a new friend, you have to make sure that you don't get wrapped up and leave all your old friends behind.

sometimes it can be a challenge. when you want to get away from everything, your new friend can be the only person to turn to.

it's hard because you have to balance them out and when one person needs more attention, the scales tip over.

losing friends however is a lot harder to do but you're still capable of doing it.

sometimes one wrong move can make you lose a friend. sometimes, it's a lot of moves that make you lose a friend.

trying to get that friend back is your choice. depending on the circumstances of course. if your friendship can go through all the ups and downs and still somewhat survive, then that is what i call true friendship.

but obviously it goes both ways. both of you have to try. there isn't any point in one person trying because then it's not a relationship. a relationship is about giving and receiving. not just giving or not just receiving.

however, one thing i've learnt throughout this entire time is the fact that no matter what happens, the people that stick with you through the best of times and the worst of times are the people whom you should call your true friends. these are the people who won't judge you for what you've done but judge you for who you are. no matter how far away they are, they'll always be there for you.

one person who has always been there for me is my mum.

over the past year, i've become a lot closer to her. i think it's either because i've started thinking more grown up and more rationally or that my mum has started to think more like me or has accepted recent ideologies.

whatever it is, we've been fighting a lot less and have been talking a lot more. we have become a lot closer than i thought we would and that has surprised me. i never once thought that i would be this close to her. but i love it! of course we still have our arguments, but that's the whole point. we're supposed to. if we didn't, that would be a little bit weird. she doesn't have the answers to everything, but it's comforting knowing that whenever i'm upset, she'll always be there for me.

so go. find the people who'll always be there for you.

-s-

happy mother's day

when i was growing up and was going through the many troubles of being a teenager, i used to go to my ma for advice. she always had something to say. mainly however was that friends will come and go and family will stay with you forever.

but being a teenager, i didn't want to hear that. i wanted to hear that my friends were always going to be there. at that point, i didn't want my ma to be my best friend.

we started fighting on an almost daily basis about the smallest things. i told her that she never understood me and that i was completely different from her. no matter how much i did that, she never let go. whenever we fought, she always held on tighter. i was the one that wanted to keep my distance, while she wanted to close it.

there came a point in my life when i stopped believing in myself, she didn't. when i thought that i was a nobody, she told me that i was the best thing that had ever happened to her. when i thought that i wasn't good enough, she told me to dream and strive for everything i believe in. even now, being hundreds of miles away, she's always supporting me in whatever i do.

she's the one that's made me who i am. she's the one that has kept her faith in me. she's the one that has loved me unconditionally.

she's my mother. and i love her.

happy mother's day.

-s-